Royal Wedding

     I've been watching a lot of TV recently, and I remember the one that was on NTV 7. It was about Prince William, all his history and the things he went through in the days of meeting Kate. I didn't bother. I found that it was boring, because there were other shows that were on, and were much more interesting. Though when the shows had commercial breaks, I went back to NTV 7, at first I didn't know what was so special about "Princes" I thought that it was just a random title or etc. But there is a meaning behind it. Also, I found out that every male in the Royal Family, needs to go for military training! [I wish I was chosen for military training!!] These shows had been going on and on, every week and so.

Till a few days ago, I started reading about their marriage, and everything. Then I got interested. Later on, today it was their marriage. Its just so amazing! People have been there for days, hours, just to see what happens. News reporters were everywhere! Every channel was LIVE. Before the marriage happened, the news reporters can find things to talk about for freaking hours!! Like 6 hours straight. That's awesome! Even the websites are LIVE! Updated every minute or so. I know they're Royal people, and really famous. Most of the world's leaders are here, but DAMN! Isn't it a bit too over? *Jealous* Security guards, soldiers, military people, were standing there for hours, they had to stand straight! With discipline, not enough? They were also holding a gun, and its pretty heavy. They received threats, and it made the police check everywhere. I mean EVERYWHERE! They pulled out the door of the light post, each and everyone within the radius of the area, they checked the drains, they checked the buildings, the roof. Everywhere, and when they were done, the polices said that they were ready for ANY terrorist attacks. Man, that is just so awesome. They have the place covered! They have police on the ground, snipers on the roof, aircrafts somewhere hiding and all that! Just so amazing! People were waiting so long that they made bets! Bets like, what color hat would the queen be wearing, what color dress Kate would be wearing, and ALL that.

                                          Kate's wedding dress! It shocked everyone!

 It was stated strictly that Kate was only allowed to be accompanied by his father next to him, while her other family members and relative had to stay in another crowd somewhere.

Look at that car! Its amazing! The back mirror curves a bit up, and it has to be bullet proof! I wonder if this car is better, or the one Obama is riding in.

Just imagine this happening, as they drive across everyone, the tire          
suddenly pops, everyone would think that its a gun shot, and I bet would be a chaos. But luckily it didn't happened and the wedding went on safely.

When they finally gathered and Prince Williams place the ring on Kate. Would you just look at the Reverend's robe? It so.. um... powerful! Christ is with him! =]

So many people around the world was invited, most of the world's leaders attended, and they are like the highest in their country, and when their in London for the wedding, their just one of the spectator sitting aside! Its like being so great in your home, telling people to do this and do that. Then when you're in someone's else home, you have to listen to what they say, while sitting aside!

This is the moment every has been waiting for, the kiss  on the balcony. [Security is soo HIGH!]

       Now, congratulations to their wedding, it was a wonderful day. They didn't even had to take pictures for themselves. They has NEWS REPORTERS taking it for them. How I wish I had them... And now after the marriage, they are Duke and Duchess of Cambridge.

Lucky 7

On Thursday night, I was watching tv.. again. And when the show was done, I was doing my work while the tv was on. Later on, another show started, and it caught my attention. It was so good. Its about this girl named Amy, and her mother died when she was only 7. Before her mother died, her mother made a timeline for her. Like, at what age she should be doing so and so. She kept the timeline and followed it step by step. Her mother said she would have many boyfriends, and that till the 7th one will she then get married. Till her 5th, she was just finishing college, and started working at a law firm which the timeline also mentioned. One day, Amy met a guy and she founded out that he was really good. So one day they went out on a date. Later on, they started kissing and there was fireworks. Which when she was 7 she asked her mom how she would know if he was the right guys, and her mom said there will be fireworks. But this is only number six. While they
were kissing, Amy pulled back for a second and told the guy it wasn't right. And asked if the guy could take it slowly. Then when they hugged again, again there were fireworks. She went home, told her friends about it and got to the point where number six was eating dinner with Amy and her dad. Her dad really liked him. But there was another problem.. She then remembered a guy who works at a bagel shop asked him if he could pretend to be his girlfriend while at his friend's wedding out of town. First, Amy denied. But she wanted to make number 6 number 7, so she could marry him. And Amy agreed to go with the bagel guy.

They had fun, enjoyed everything, and it was time to go back home. She really missed number 6, so then later on when she was with number 6, she was thinking about the bagel guy. His dad asked her why she's going out with number 6, and out of town with the bagel guy. She explained. And her dad said that she shouldn't be too focused on the timeline. It was just a guide or a way to show that her mom was with her. But really who Amy wants to marry is really her choice. Then lastly she left number 6, and went for the bagel guy.

So I was thinking, I've dated my 5th already and my next would be the 6th. So will it be ? Heh, this got me thinking through the whole movie. Overall I give it a 9/10. Highly recommended!! Remember, its "Lucky 7."!! Please do watch it and tell me whether you liked it or not! =]

Babies Dumping

I was chilling in my room. Playing with my BlackBerry and my TV was on. So I was enjoying that peace. When suddenly the news was on and started talking about people dumping babies away. I was like pissed. I mean, why would you dump a baby? That's a freaking life right there. How would you feel if your parents dumped you? Let's be straight. If you wanna have sex, use a condom.. If there's an accident and you're pregnant, don't even think about aborting it. DON'T even THINK about it. That's still like murdering. Though the law says the first two weeks is your choice. But its still murdering!! Just let the baby out and put them in the orphanage. And some other people who loves them would take care of them. And though when they grow up, they would know that he/she was an orphan. And isn't that way better than being dead? Instead of giving birth and dumping them in the drain, why not dump them in the orphanage?

I mean, come on.. Why would you dump them away? They're just so cute and stuff.. Heh. Probably I just love babies too much. =]

Hair Product: Dove

First off, I highly recommend Dove! This is like the best hair product I used so far. Back in the days, after I didn't have school. I dyed my hair. And the quality of it was bad already. The day after I dyed my hair, I figured it wasn't as bright as the paper said it would be. So I was planning to dye it again. Exactly on week after, I dyed my hair again. the quality of my hair just gotten worst! Whenever I'm in the shower and my hair is wet, it would crumple up in a big pile, and it literally sticks there. I washed it like so many times. Yet the same.. So I putted on the Sunsilk's Black and Manageable product. And it did help. But it was temporary. Whenever my hair was wet again, it would crumple up into a pile again.

One day, I was watching the TV, and the Dove hair product advertisement kept on repeating. So I was saying, why not give it a try. When I finally got it. I couldn't wait to try it. So once I got home I tried it. It was awesome!! Just putting it on for the first time, I could already see results. So I continued using it. Twice a day. Everyday, and in a week, my hair was back to the healthy ones that I previously had. It was like magical! It really was 'intense repair.'

Well, that's it for this post. I can't believe I'm writing about a hair product. But its just so amazing, I just gotta give them props.

The Feeling of Being Loved

     I forgot which movie it was.. Was it Last Song? The one with Miley Cyrus in it? I don't think so. But I'm pretty sure its a movie of Nicholas Sparks'. It was the one about this guy who didn't find love at home. [Parents or siblings.] And he went to get girls. One after the other. Till he came across this particular girl and she implied in some way that he's a 'player' because he does things to girls that he's already done to other girls. But the fact is that the guy isn't a player. Its just that he didn't find love at home. So he wanted the feeling of being loved. And that is why he went to chase girls.

Well, as that being said. This kind of relates to me. I'm tired of everything that happens at home. Less on that, just say I don't feel like I even 'exist' at home. But they're still my parents, so I got to treat them good...

From this point in my life, I've been with 5 girls. First 2 weren't that serious.. I guess. The first was when I was in 5th grade. Second was in 6th or 7th, and the third was right after the second. Then the third was when I came back to Malaysia. We didn't really hung out, we just talked and met in school. Oh yeah, and times when we were out with our friends. Then finally the 5th one, could be said as the most serious. And this would be the one that I'll relate to. 

Its like I don't care, well, I care actually. But don't 'really' react to being hurt by someone. It the feeling of love that I want. So I'll do anything for the one I love. Like treating her good and everything. Er, it just too hard to express what I'm trying to say... All it is, is that I just want to feel loved? Is it? I'm not even sure...

Hence, these days I've been day dreaming. And I dreamed a lot of things. Not just dreams. But also events, things done, things said and etc of the past times. And in conclusion, I find myself treating friends better than family. I personally have no idea why. I do love my parents. And I do love my friends. But it seems I treat my friends better. I mean, I do care about my parents, I do talk to them, I do things with them. But I don't 'express' my feelings with them. Probably I'm just scared that they'll prejudge me before I even finish telling them what I want to say. Talking about prejudge, today I was telling my parents about a new product by Philips. I started off telling them that they don't need to fry chicken anymore. Then my dad said, then how? Use air? And I said, yeah! Then my mom goes and start from there. "Don't be a fool, how is that possible?" "I've never heard such stupid thing." Blah blah blah... Then I held my feelings inside and
explained to them. I said its like a shape of a rice cooker, you put the chicken inside and some hot air would generate something and somehow get the chicken fried and crispy. And if I didn't mistaken, I think it was called, "Airfry," or something like that. Later on when I was finished explaining to them. My mom somehow seemed amazed and told me that I should had said that earlier... Now I was waiting for her to say this. Then I told her that, I tried to finished what I was saying, but before I could you started blabbing things. Right there, I think she found a side of guilt and kept quiet.

Well, anyways. This post's about feeling loved, not prejudge..

Hey! It's my first blog post from my BlackBerry!! =]

Friend's Birthday Party

On April 15th my friend had a birthday party. And since I'm writing this post, I sure did attend. It was fun. I made some new friends. It started out when we gathered up at school. Then we took the train to her house. Chat, laughed, had fun and everything else in between. Alright alright, before I get there. I need to tell you that I love taking pictures. Not of myself, but of other people and beautiful scenery. But I don't have enough money to get myself a nice camera.. Then at the party I spotted this camera, which belonged to someone I knew, but not exactly a friend.. yet. But she seemed quite nice, so when my friends who knew her were using her camera, I borrowed it and took some pictures. I'm not saying I'm good of anything and not even bragging, but I find the pictures i take, are quite nice. There are many people I knows who loves taking pictures, but don't take them nice. And that camera was EOS 550D, totally a nice camera. =] I took a lot! =] Just too stunning. And I wanted to take people's photo and they wouldn't let me. Then I was like. "hey pretty, let me get some pretty face in this camera. One, two, three, click!" And I got their picture. I of course showed it to them, and guess what? They loved it! And I felt great. =] Sigh, I'm gonna save a lot of money and get myself a camera. Then there was this there was this other girl. It was the camera's owner's friend. She was pretty friendly. And knows how to have fun and make people have fun. She wasn't shy, when there were a group on the other side of the room laughing so hard, she actually suggested us to suddenly laugh and it must be louder than theirs. Wow, I never really met anyone like this before ever since I came back from NY. And funny this was, she lives around my store. Like I can walk there!! Coincidence! Also I was so into taking pictures that when everyone was eating, I was taking pictures. Well somebody got to be the photographer right?? Hehh.. I didn't mind doing something I loved while making people happy. When I finally pass the camera to someone else, and when I was finally eating, everyone was playing a game I like to call 'pass the chicken.' it's simple, one would just take a chicken wing and place it on someone else's plate when they don't notice. And it went on and on from there. Pretty fun, enjoyed myself and so did everyone else. When time past by so quickly, it was time to head home and that was the end if that wonderful day. =]

A Short Day, Yet So Much Happened. [Part Three]

On to the next, walking to the cinema and buying a ticket for "Sucker Punch."

Third Movie: Sucker Punch:
     Yes, I've landed on Sucker Punch, because the ratings were higher than The Eagle. In the review it said that if I didn't like the beginning, it would be tough to make it through the whole movie. Well, honestly, I didn't really get the beginning, matter a fact, I didn't get the whole movie, just parts in it. The tickets were worth it though. So there's this girl, somehow ran out the house and gotten in a place of darkness and BAM, a Church dude appears and seems that he brought the orphan, (oh, now shes an orphan?) to a place.. Looks like a prison to me.. And she meets the monk and fight these monsters, and make some friends, and collects items, and when she's on stage the camera turns and she's in another place. Whatt??? Its like getting the items in two different perspective right..? Or is it? Ehh, I didn't really get it. But the movie was quite nice.. Did you get it? Or feel the same like me? Let me know! So I'm not the only one...

Then it was time for me to head on home.. and I noticed I didn't eat dinner, I checked my phone and I have some missed calls, it was my mom. I called he back she said she was at a restaurant, and she would 'ta bao' for me, so the dinner case was solve, and I head outside KLCC and went to the bus waiting area.

Bus DIVA!:
     There was a lot of people, A LOT of people, traffic jam and everything, it was gonna make my day go wrong, but again I kept it under and waited for my bus. At first I saw another bus that would take me to my destination, so I went for it, cause I thought that waiting for the same bus I came on would take a long time due to the traffic jam, so I ran for the bus that was taking off, and when I got to the door, the stupid insane bus driver closed the door, IN MY FACE!! POW! But end of that, I was okay, and I went back to wait for the bus. And my bus finally came, and mad people, I mean like a whole god damn village of people was rushing for that bus! And in a second, the bus was filled, but I managed to get on it, and I had to stand and hold onto a bar. Then I spotted this girl, she was in her twenties and she seemed pretty cool and I was eye-ing on her. But it wasn't a time for that, so I did what I suppose to do... wait for my stop, and get off. It was squishy.. Later on, this malay women stood next to me, and he butt was HUGEEE!! And it was busting towards me, and in me I was thinking, "Lady, don't push that meat towards me..." But I didn't say it of course... The traffic was so heavy that in an hour we only moved like 5 KMs...=.=" Everyone on the bus was sleepy and tired, I could read everyone mind. They were hoping that everyone would just get off the bus so that there were more free space. Then it was my stop to get off. FINALLY!!

So I thought that the there was only one stop per street and I wasn't sure if I could get off where I wanted, because some bus drivers are just too stubborn. So I got off the stop nearest to mine where the many people got off. And I had to walk a long long way. Till I came to a place, it was dark and a huge parking lot. [No roof] And I was pretty scared I should say, cause anyone could've just popped up and robbed me and ending up give me a black eye or torn shirt. So I called my dad, I told him to come drive me home, and he asked where I was and I told him where, and he told me to walk 'there.' And I said okay, and that 'there' was across the parking lot, so rapidly I walked to the place and luckily nothing happened to me! Thanks GOD!! Then he came, and I was home. DONE!

And I thought to myself, I was never gonna go out like this again. Well, not never, but not like when I have other things to do. Its just that somethings we have to do things that parents don't think we should, so they will think and assume that we are mature enough. For more information, I will be posting something about getting out from the house. I'm not a professional, but from experience I've succeed!! =]

Taking Off Your Earring For The Very First Time

Just now... Nah, let's start of by talking about yesterday. For along time I always wanted to get my ear pierced. I even got to the point where I took a needle, alcohol, fire and other things to pierce or myself. Damn, it hurts. So then finally yesterday I finally went to pierce my ear. The cool liquid that numbs my ear felt really good. Heh. Probably get one to kept myself cool. =] Oh, by the way, I pierced my ear at a small shop in a mall. In which I highly don't recommend. And I'll tell you why later... After I pierced my ear it was kind of okay. Then it hurt a little and I got home, showered with it and slept with it because that was what I was told to do. And if you didn't know already, I'm a type of person who doesn't listens to what people says to me. [Well, depends who.. Heh:.] I researched and read many articles that the ear hole takes 6-8 weeks to heal completely. And I somehow decided to take the earring apart. And sure it was hard. It's because the gun that was used to pierce your ear clamps the earring tightly together. So taking it off the first time is hard. I had to yank it off the first time. Yes, you got it right. I COULDN'T PUT IT BACK IN!! I remembered my friend telling me that he took it out too soon and had to pierce it again and that was what I thought when I couldn't put it back in. Then I finally when and took a pin, washed it with soap and stabbed my ear hole from the front and luckily it came back out from the ear hole. And finally of 20 minutes i got the earring back it. I was relieved! It was like the best feeling in the world!! And for a little extra, if you're reading this to know how to take the earring off the very first time, here's a simple how-to.

How to Take Off Your Earring The First Time::-

1: Turn the earring a few rounds. Left and right, this loosens the earring and as well warm up your ear.

2: This is optional. [I didn't do this.] If you really can't take pain, ice the ear first. Make it cold and numb till you can't feel a thing.

3: From the back of the ear, DO NOT grab the two circles and push them together. This only makes the earring harder to remove. So instead, grab the soft side, and grab you earring from the front and pull it apart hard! It should be easy to remove a little, then when you want it completely out, it takes more strength because there's a few rim or 'teeth' that makes it harder. 

4: So after that you should be all good.

Heh, I guess I learned my lesson. DONT TAKE THE EARRING OFF SO SOON!! .....

A Short Day, Yet So Much Happened. [Part Two]

Okay, next.

Then I had a stomach ache, so I went to the bathroom. That was done and I headed back to the cinema.

Second Movie: Hop:
     So I ended up with the same lady whom I bought tickets from, for the first movie, and I said, "Hop at 1:10." And she was like what? I was like Hop, and was like what? And I was like H-O-P. I spelled it out for her and she was like. Ohh, hop.. She said it like, "Hoop," Whatt? Are you kidding me..? Well, end of that, then I went if, after a short while the movie started, and Oh My God.. A bunny who plays drums? And a human being an Easter Bunny? Well, it was alright though..

So then the time was like 2:50 or something, and after leaving the cinema from the back door, I went back and check out the time for the next show, I had Source Code, Sucker Punch and The Eagle to choose from, cause they all start at 4:20, so I had time for lunch, so I went for lunch, and got myself a sandwich from Subway. It was pretty good. [I eat it all the time.] Its healthy, fresh and full. Then when I was done, it was like 3:02, so I sat for a while, then got up and went to the book store and suddenly remembered a friend of mine 'looking' through the bookstore finding things out like a second floor, a what what section and etc. End of that... So then looked through the study guides section and went to the magazine section, I went through a magazine and saw the reviews of Sucker Punch and The Eagle, and Sucker Punch was rated higher than The Eagle. So then I read through it and it was like between if I wanted a whole bunch of girls, or a whole bunch of guys. And of course I made my mind clear for Sucker Punch. Then I went to browse books and came across one that was very interesting, and I was like, damn, I don't have enough money.

Should I Get It?:
     I knew I had enough money on me to get the book, but if I purchased the book, I wouldn't have enough money to pay the fees for my computer. So then I thought to myself, I still got time and it wouldn't cost me a cent to start reading it, here, at the bookstore. So I went up to the second floor, found myself a quite spot and began reading. Well, it was pretty quite at first, but when this other girl reunited with her friends, and you know how girls likes to gossip and stuff (sorry... :/) and they started talking, laughing, blabbing everything that they had in mind and I was getting pretty frustrated. But I began to think positively and continued on my reading. As my reading goes on and on, its like the book knew what I was thinking and as if it hit all the critical spots. And I was like, thats it, I'm gonna get this book. There's like two sides fighting in the inside of me and I hesitated to make a decision yet, so I kept on reading, and I read on and read on it was better and better and the side inside me that says get the book won. Well, it won, but I was still the one who was going to make the decision. Now, it was almost time for a movie to start. So I had to make the decision now. I started thinking, "Do I really need this book?" The answer was yes. "Do I 'want' or 'need' this?" Again, the answer was yes. "Can I afford it?" And the answer was yes and no. Yes as in I have the money now in my pocket to pay for the book, and no as in, if I bought the book then I wouldn't have enough money to pay my computer fees. I knew I still had other books to read at home that I haven't even started yet. So I decided to put the book down and finish reading the other books, and by the time I'm done reading those books, I'm pretty sure I have enough to get this book..

Controlling Your Temper

     I always find this a big issue. Not just for me, but for a lot of people. They just seem to 'blow' all out of a sudden. You see, getting out your anger is a good thing, but it depends how you do it and in what way do you do it. I always have these problems with my parents, even my brother, but mainly my mom. I examined that many moms tend to keep on saying things and just won't stop. Well, it because they care about you and you can't deny that. But to us they are annoying.. right? Whenever they keep on talking and talking, they get deeper and deeper and it hurts your feelings more, and you just want to do something and make her stop.. right? [I have many friends who told me about this..] And the MOSTLY done thing to make them stop is to argue back and to raise your voice higher than theirs. Now this is where they say things like you don't respect them, you don't understand, immature, or just plain brainless. And in Stephen R. Covey's book on The 7 Habits of Highly Effective People, I find this book real interesting. Its says that lack of understanding is where most parents are a distance away from their child. In the book it says that when these kind of conflicts happens and happens all the time, we (children) just stop communication with our parents. Why? Its because if we told them what on our mind, they will lecture us IMMEDIATELY instead of understanding from our point of view. Or when they just tell them something wrong they did, their parents will have a lot of "I told you so's." And one main thing is, they don't probe. Like at all. Whenever one parent is talking to their child calmly and peacefully, and when there's like one bad thing that the dad/mom said, then the other parent would use that key and blab everything. Its like they don't even know the problem, and just gets in the way. Its just so annoying! Moving on, these are ways how I control my temper.

Positive Thinking:
     Yes, this might be a little obvious but positive thinking is effective, once you learn how to do it properly. For me, I think about all the good things. Like times that makes me happy. Or even this, you had had a relationship before right? Think about the sweet times when you and your ex were together. That alway helps. Or even think about yourself in your dream world. Spending all that cash, getting all those things you ever wanted, sitting in that limo. Everything, just think..

Anger Force OUT:
     Back in that days I came across this article with this method on how to release anger and it work greatly. It not only gets the anger out, but it helps you have a conscious mind. This is how you do it: You clench your fist, clench your teeth, you take a deep breath and hold it for 10 seconds. Just flex every muscle and hold it for 10 seconds, and when the 10 seconds is up, release and you will feel better. Works for me.. =]

Beat The Pillow:
     Yes, BEAT THE PILLOW! Pretend its whoever you wanna beat and beat that thing up. It won't hurt you hands, if won't hurt anyone, and it gets the anger out! This is the easiest one! =D

That is for now, I only have 3 methods.... Tell me others that you know of!! Let me know!! I need them!

Holding in your anger isn't good, it makes your heartbeat run fast, and might even get a heart attack if its fatal. So just get the anger out! =] Peace.

A Short Day, Yet So Much Happened. [Part One]

     On April 12th 2011, somehow our shop didn't open because my parents has something to do, and eventually it would take the whole day. (Somehow, because the reason is too..personal? I guess..?) Anyways, and that day was a Monday, which my brother had class, and my parents were at home, and I went out alone. Now throughout this whole day, many things happened. So let me tell you one. by. one. =]

All About the Bus:
     So from my home to the bus station, was quite a distance, so I walked and walked till I reached it. Then I saw a chubby Malay dude, wearing a hat with his backpack, and listening to songs, okay, pretty cool. So we waited together, then when there was a bus coming to our direction, he waved his hand to the bus driver, which means to ask him to stop, we wanna get on. While he was waving his hand, he looked at me and gave me a face, as in saying, "Come on, lets wave together." I was like psshh.. you're already waving, why should I. So then he paid the bus driver and it was my turn, that bus number was T332, which I totally had no idea of the routes it would take, but there was a sign that read, 'Sri Nilam - Chow Kit.' Then I asked the bus driver if this could take me to KLCC, he said blah blah blah, and I heard he said to take this bus and go wait somewhere, or something like that. Then I paid him, and found a spot to stand, cause all the seats were taken. Then this Chinese women, in front of everyone asked me where I was going, and I said KLCC. She said, its okay, this bus would take you there. I was like, oh, thank you. Then THAT was suppose to be the end of the conversation, but she was like, "Now there's a new bus system, no more paying cash, you need to buy the bus card." I knew that, but I said, ohh, I didn't know. I said that because I didn't wanted to talk much and make a fool out of myself, so instead I let her talk the talk and I walk the walk. =], then later she got off. Then remember the Malay dude? Where there was a seat next to me, he was like, 'You should sit.' He didn't talk, all was hand motion and he was bouncing his head like he was on drugs. [He's like in the 40's..] Then later he got off, and then I sat down. [YEA! What now! NOW I sit!!] heh, And that was the end of the bus, and I reached my destination.

From the entrance, I walked to McDonald's and ordered breakfast. Nothing much happened here, so lets skip.

First Movie: Just Go With It:
     So by the time I reached the cinema, it was 10:54, and I wandered around to see and look around, then came to a TV that posted all the show and showtimes. And I saw, "Just Go With It - 11:00AM." So then I went and lined up to buy a ticket. And when it was my turn, I said, "Just Go With It, at 11." And the computer went to the page of the seats. And she questioned me, "You're 18 right?" I was stunned. Like completely. And I froze on the freaking spot. I didn't know that it was rated 18, and I couldn't say, "I thought it was PG13," Cause if I did, she would say I'm not 18. Then suddenly I said, "Yeah, why?" And she's like, Ohh, nothing, just double checking." After I said "Yeah," I shook my head hardly like I just woke up from bed, so its like acting like I suddenly went blank, and end it with a laugh. Then from where she asked me which seat I wanted to sit in, I said it in a way deeper voice. And after I purchased it, it was already time for me to enter, and I before I gave the dude the ticket for him to peel, I said, "I go in there right?" Actually I knew, I just wanted to give me some of my deep voice so he wouldn't be suspicious of me. And he was like yeah, took my ticket and I went in, and while I didn't in a very mature way, I said. "Thanks." Then BAM! BAM! BAM! I was in!! And I think it was rated 18 because of Jennifer Anniston grabbing her own boobs, and that was very much it... Or something like that, but mainly boobs..

Young Dreams.

     Back then when I was little/young, I had many many dreams and things I wanted to accomplished. I remember the first one was being a 'buffed' up man. Like a cop, special forces, agents and even the military. Well of course that was in New York, because US's defense are really strong, and till I came back here, those dreams became dead... I wanted to become a cop, so I can take the force to a new level. Its like I can speed the traffic, ignoring the lights and wreck the police car up while I'm in a pursuit chase, also I have to walkie-talkie and also other cops and even helicopters that gets my back. For agents, and special forces, I'll get to use those special gadgets and those technologies that the public know not of. Its just so amazing. When I was little, I watched a lot of action movies and how they take the bad people down, and fight, war, and etc. So I had this strong patriotism. (For America, of course.) And I told myself, one day, I would fight for this country until my last breath. So I thought about being in the military/marines/navy. Driving all those heavy weight monsters, firing all the gun shots, throwing grenades and bombing up enemy base. It was like a total dream for me, like as if it was already happening. The best part is, when you go for military training, the instructors will push you to the limit! Pushing you to the level you've never reached before. Then after a couple of months, you come out from the camp readying to fight, looking all buffed up and strong.

But I didn't just had 'war-like' dreams. I also had dreamed about being a pilot. I always wanted to fly a plane.. Then while flying to places, you get to stay there for a while before flying another plane to somewhere else. And during that time you have, you can visit the place. Its like you're getting paid for visiting!! Ain't that just amazing? You can get to know a little about the history, see the culture, see the way people there act, and even make some friends. So its like having friends from all over the world. Then from that point of my dream, from where I'm like the captain of the plane, or already have enough experience, I would quit the job, and apply for military again. (hehe...) There I would be flying these cool aircrafts, like the FA-22 Raptor, or Fighting Falcon, and many many more. They take of fast, the turn fast, and they fly extremely fast. Like taking a airplane pilot to a whole new level.

Then when I grew older, I knew that my parents didn't had the money to support me if I was going for military or flying courses. So I took some time and thought about the situation. And I only had two choices. One was I could change course, or two, I could studying really really hard and get a scholarship for that. Now, here, this is not possible, not because I don't study. I do, I was in the gifted class for 3 years before coming back to Malaysia.. And as back here, I don't understand the language, and its like I have to start all over again, and even the education is different, so I took some time to get use to it and I wasn't doing so well in school anymore, comparing to when I was in NY. But theres nothing to change the fact. So I just went with the flow, and I thought about being an Engineer. Either a mechanical one or an electrical one. But for the electrical one, I would just be a worker. On the other hand, for the mechanical one, I would work some several companies while making money and gaining experiences. Then I would head out and open my own car service factory. Like fixing expensive cars and stuff. And not like the regular car service, I would have a huge one. Using all the latest technologies and machines. As I fix them, someone would have to try them out. So here...hehehe... I would be the one trying them out, driving the world's top cars. Partly, when I'm running this, I would go out and work again, but this time for aircrafts, I'll learn how to fix them and know more about them, so again, making money while getting experience. Later on, when I'll good enough, I would again, quit the job and this time open up a aircraft service factory. And this would be way bigger! And then I would go for aircraft trainings, then when I'm done with that, I'll get to drive the world's best aircrafts! (heheh..)

Well, after all, these are just dreams..

But wait, here's another one. Back in the days I would go to school every morning like all the other kids. Then after school, or during school, I would finish up my homework. Or save them till Sunday if its on Friday. Then I would go home and use the computer. And my mom worked for a 'tape renting' company. (I'm talking about those tape tape... You know cassette tapes? Yea, the bigger ones...)
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This was before CD's were invented. (We still used floppy disk those days too..) So then she would borrow a lot of TVB drama videos. And she would watch it with my dad every night. And sometimes I watch it too, but most of the times, cause my mom really knows which series she wants to watch! And this went on for years, borrow, watch, return, borrow, watch, return and so forth.

And I had a dream of being an actor, film director, detective, forensics, musician or even backstage people. For the actor part, read the previous post, titled "My Future..?" As backstage, I get to work with a team of people transporting for one place to another. Thats my main part. I like being at scenes. And that could work for forensics too, I like tracing and finding out whose the killer or etc. I dreamed about being in a band, hitting th stage with the band members and rocking out the show. You probably didn't know I had cello classes for two years, and I gotta say. I was pretty good, thanks to the teacher I had. But as for now, its all forgotten...

You see how all my dreams are like not solo? I mean like a pilot, I have co-pilots, air stewards, and other members. A musician has a band with other friends. A forensic's team has other members, backstage with other people. Military with a lot of people. An actor with the director, producer make up artists and many other. I don't know, probably I just like it more when I with people? As of now I'm studying at home and don't go out a lot, I hate it. Its like I don't even have a life. So I think its true that I love it more when I'm around people, and people are around me. Or is it? (Actually, I don't even know...)

I SALUTE Japan!!

     Its not only me, I believe everyone are also talking great things about Japan, that's unless you watch the news.. Although they had tsunamis and earthquake at such a high magnitude, damaging so many building and killing so many people, they are still 'calm.' Calm in a sense that they have manners, like, they won't be going to stores or markets to rob to steal and stuff. They are calm~ Well, of course they're scared because their love ones are now dead... To me, if something like this happened in the US, people would be all messed up. Running around, killing people, robbing stuff, hijacking cars and the rest.

And now they have a nuclear crisis.. The radiation building was down and leaked out harmful radiation rays to a extremely high percentage! And the food were contaminated, people got sick, some even died..

Pretty a sort post, but I'm just saying, I SALUTE JAPAN!

Something About Clowns...

     I don't know about you, but I just don't like clowns. Its looks scary. And they're are like f*cked up!! They can be like so good to children and etc, but behind their backs, they're probably the ones killing people and disguise themselves in the circus or where ever.. So back then I came across some 'Urban Legends,' and guess what? I came across one that was something about a clown and here the story.. (There are many versions, and the one I previously read a totally different and more scary from this one, but I just can't find back the previous one..)

One night a couple decided that they could use a break so they made plans to go out for dinner. They hired a babysitter that a friend of theirs had suggested. Once the teenager arrives the father requests that after she puts their children to sleep that she goes into their bedroom and watch some TV. They had recently just moved into their home so a lot of the house had yet to have been completed. He doesn't want her to wander around the house where she could knock stuff over.

Soon the parents leave and she puts the kids to sleep. She does as the father says and watches TV in their bedroom, or at least she tries. She is too disturbed by the clown statue to focus. Eventually, she gets too creeped out by the statue and calls the father.

"Hey. Sorry to bother you but do you think it would be okay if I covered the clown statue. It is really freaking me out."

The father's frightened response was,"Grab the kids and get out of the house now. Go to the neighbors. We will be there soon."

"What? Why?"

"Please just go."

She agreed and gathered the kids. They waited at the neighbors for a few minutes before the police and the parents arrived. They explained to her that they did not own a clown statue. The children had talked about a clown watching them sleep but they thought they were just having bad dreams.

The police capture the clown who was really a mentally unstable midget. He had been living in their house for awhile. Since it was so large he was able to sneak around without being seen. The midget had been in the parent's room and couldn't leave without the babysitter seeing so he froze and pretended to be a statue.

See, the one I previously read about, the clown wasn't a midget. The clown was like a phantom, when the cops came to the house, the clown just disappeared and was never caught and it was like he didn't even existed. There were also other parts that made it scary, but I just can't remember the rest.. Oh yea, and it says that he has an oily face of some kind...

Then one day I was out with my friends where there was a bunch of people dressed in costumes walking past us, and one of them was a clown. I was like, *fist clenched* and ready, SO READY, if that clown came touching me and stuff..

I just don't know why, I just have a bad feelings about clowns. And if you read this and come running towards me dressing like a clown, you're definitely trying to get your ass kicked... (Might sound mean, but just don't do it, and we're all good. =])

My Future..?

Now I'm just sitting here blasting songs with my head phones on while blogging this with my ipod. It's pretty hard to choose what you want to be when you grow up. I mean, when we were little we said we wanna be that be that and that. But 'then' we didn't know how hard or what that career takes to be. And so as we grow up and our minds develop, we come to a point where we really got to choose. And many people chose this, and had a career of that. 

It is really God's purpose or something? Do we just need to wait patiently? I know people who was so in to studying in something and had this other thing that they wanted to do but didn't do well, so they made up there mind to do what hey were good at. But after they finish studying that, they totally change to something else and perform an even better job at it.

So is it just that we all have talents but just haven't really fully discovered it yet?

See? For me, I'm just not those type of people who enjoys 'sitting' for hours at the same place. I'm more of an active guy. I like to move around, try out different things and somehow put my life in danger. [Risk taking] So I really wanna be an actor, as an actor you get many roles, they are all completely different and can learn a dosage of things while making money. Then when you try out so many different roles you can either continue to act or concentrate on just one of them.

Today I was watching 'I Shouldn't Be Alive' on Discovery Channel. Now that's one of my interest. In case you don't know, it's about this crew of people going in the Amazon, jungle trekking and had to survive in there. It's not for days, it's at least for weeks or even months. Then one of them had an leg infection due to the active rain in the Amazons. So then his leg was all swollen up and couldn't walk anymore. So he and another member decided to call it off and head out of the Amazon. And they took the river because, one, that guy didnt had to walk and two, it would had been faster. But unluckily the water was too strong and it flipped their boat and the one with the swollen leg was washed down 2 miles while luckily the other member manage to climb up and was safe. Then the one that couldn't work, struggled for 17 days while starving. The other one that was trying to find him was an amazing expert in surviving. He knew every thing. He built an mosquito net bed, a swamp bed and another one which i forgot the name. He was amazing. When he got cuts, he found a try, cut it up and used the juice to whipe the cuts. Cause the tree contains iodine. He build a fire, made one with smoke for SOS so when pilots sees, it means emergencies. And due to the rain, i didn't get to watch the rest. 

But all I'm saying is that when i see things like those, I'm easily motivated. I just how I can be successful in the future and also well known..

Discovery Channel: Storm Chasers.

     Yesterday morning I turned on the TV and flipped through the channels and finally came to something that caught my eye. It was Discovery Channel's Storm Chasers. Thats like almost exactly what I want to do. You can have fun, make money, enjoy and many others. Cause as of me, I like to take challenges and take on extreme risks, I mean the team of storm chasers can be blown away in just a split second. But due do the modification of the car and gadgets they had, they were more than safe. And I just wish I had an career like that. Its either driving that monster car, checking all the weather forecast, or whether its holding the camera filming everything, I wanna be just one of 'em. Its so cool!!

I don't know, it just takes my breath away when I see these things and have the sudden motivation that I want to do that, but though I don't know what they've been through to finally get to that point!

Finally!:- Laptop Getting Fixed! =D

     Finally my laptop is getting fixed. Its been so long. So let me tell you what happened to my PC. First, it kept shutting of itself for some reasons, then after months of trying to solve the problem through internet forums, HP online services and etc, it didn't work..Then there was this thing about vacuuming the PC fan to get rid of the dust. So I tried that, but from the outside it didn't work, so I took it apart and tried to get to the fan, the first time I did, I was scared so after halfway I putted it back together and there was a crack on the screen!! Shitt!! [Yea, stop laughing...=.="]

Then I just left it like that, formatted, restored the computer, but still didn't solve the problem, so one night I was tired of it and I took it full apart. Like FULLY... Here are some pictures..

Heh, I found it pretty cool till I got to this point, so I kept on going and going till I went to the fan, and woah! There was a huge chunk of dust there like 1 inch thick!! So I took it out and cleaned it, then put it all back together and unluckily there was a small cable that broke and it held an important role, so therefore my PC couldn't turn on. So then I sent it for repair and they gave me a quotation that was about RM 1700! So of course I was not gonna get it fixed. I wanted to but I didn't had the money, and my parents and my brother didn't have any to lend me. So then after weeks I finally took the first steep (proactive) and I called them and told them I don't want to repair it due to the money and etc, but then I also asked them that how much it cost for just the computer to work? And they said the cable broke which was right. And I asked and they said just the cable kit is just RM 200! That shocked me, then later I found out for the full repair the main expense was the LCD which was around RM 1200, and because the LCD broke just a little, like just an inch so I decided not to fix the LCD, because it was worth it. So I confirmed them to fix the keyboard, cable and etc for just RM 450. And that was it. I mean, who would be so dumb to fix the whole PC for RM 1700? You can freaking get a new one cheaper and wayyy better.

Seek First to Understand, Then to be Understood..

     Many things are just happening to me these days, and its really hard to solve it, or at least control myself from exploding. You know how I'm the only Christian in the family and my parents worships idols and do those things.. And its okay for me, because I don't talk about them and they worshipping those idols. And yesterday I working out while my parents were eating, so the when I was done, I went to take a shower then went to eat dinner. And I was eating myself. So then I got my eating utensils and began to eat. But before I do, my dad was looking and me and I was going to pray, so I looked at him while I was praying, then I started to eat and he said, "oooh, praying to Jesus for thanking that you have food" and stuff, I knew from the start where this was going, he was trying to talk bad things about me and my religion, so then I held it in and kept on eating, then my mom asked my dad was I praying, and my dad replied yes. Then my mom said, "Your Jesus didn't cook the food from you, its me that cooked it." Then I held it in again. It was really hard and tempting to blast at the moment. Then they keep talking and then my parents said, "You try leaving this house and pray to your Jesus to give you food." Then I'm like really pissed by that point, but again I held it in. I mean, you don't "just" pray, God isn't your magic.. So then they kept talking and kept saying that I was stupid, brainless and etc. Then they just kept talking and talking till a point I said, I'm just praying, its my religion and I want to do it. Then again, like its their best comeback, they said, "You don't eat the food we cook, and pray to your Jesus to give you food." Then I said, "Eh, I didn't even talk about you and your religion and why on Earth are you talking about mine?" That set them straight, they kept silence, I was really pissed by that point and just couldn't hold it in any longer, for a second I was gonna stop eating and not eat, but I thought for a sec, and continued to. And silence was all left, probably I said something that 'hit' them, or that I was just too loud.... Then about 3 minutes later, my mom told stories in the past about how her brother, my uncle treated the Christian who were preaching. And trust me, it didn't sounded good...

Okay, end of story.

So then few minutes ago, I was continuing reading my book "The 7 Habits of Highly Effective People." By, "Stephen R. Covey." Its really interesting, and I stopped when I came to the 5th chapter where it's heading was, "Seek First to Understand, Then to be Understood." That phrase, right there literally 'hit' me. So then I kept reading and got to the second page of that chapter and stopped. Stephen gives a lot of experience and examples and ways he solves problem, so here, there was one situation where a girl doesn't want to talk to her mother about he feelings, and her mom just really wants to know. But then when the girl told her mom what the problem was (in this case, the girl didn't liked school, therefore she didn't wanted to attend anymore.) then her mom blast. Her mom said things like how her husband and her sacrificed so much for her education and said she was grateful and etc. But really, all the mother was really trying to do was to give words of comfort and told her to try to like it and have a positive thought about it. Stop right there... I'm not saying give words of comfort isn't a good thing, but the mother approached in a different way.. I mean, the mother didn't even try to understand her daughter in a different paradigm, in a different perspective, in a different angle. All she did was 'responding' to the last few words her daughter said before she started 'lecturing' the girl. And I think that most mom does this kind of things, and very few will understand what their children are really trying to say. But I'm not talking about them now, I don't wanna get in the way that you teach your children, but when I'm a parent, I will change the way you to me, to teach my children. Cause 17 this year, not really old, but I understand and know more than you guys think I do, and you just won't listen to words I say and because you guys, (my parents) are "authority-centered" (focuses on authority) you guys just don't even take a second to 'consider' what I'm trying to say out here. And last time my dad was telling about something and something, then I gave him a suggestion to do that thing in a different way, and he said, "I'm the man on the house, and this is my roof, as long as you're under my roof, you must listen to me and my commands." That was it, I was done even listening to him, so I went in my room and closed the door. Disrespectful eh? No, look at it this way, its like he already has a 'shield' to defend him, and i think that when people really listens to the other people and try to take their advice or even tries to consider them, they will shut the 'shield' off and let the words go into them. Its like they already made up their decisions and got all the planning in their mind and just want to 'inform' someone that that's what they're going to do.

Its just not working, you can't take back things from the past and compare it with the future or even now. Ever have a feeling of asking your parents something, or even telling them something and they lectured you for hours? Or even days? Then after that period of time when the lecturing keeps on happening every time you tell your parents something, something just signals you to not tell them things when you have things to tell them about. Then they will feel awkward, why isn't my children talking to me like how they were back in the days? Then they'll ask you in two different ways but with the same result. First is they ask you what wrong, and how come you don't come to them anymore, are you okay and stuff? You tell them what happens that they won't listen to them, and BAM that starts there, you get lectured again. Second, is they straight off the bat lectures you about how they don't treat their parents like this and this and this and that... The world it changing, and we must change with it. How come back then there wasn't computers, iPod, iPhone, and technologies that we now have? Because back in the days think in a different way and change the things they didn't like and tries a different approach and gets better results, and so do you think that if everyone taught their children the same old way their ancestors told them, the world would even change? NO.. If they did, we wouldn't even have the things we have now, and its would still be like the late '80s..

But though I was put in mind that, "Others will hate you because of me." I forgot which book and which verse in the Bible.

And thats it I guess, I'm done expressing my thoughts and my feelings here... Bye...

I 'need' my computer back!!

     Its been like almost two complete months that I'm living without a computer. It just sucks. There are so many things in my life that I need a computer for. Well, you might think Facebook, Twitter and etc.. But thats not a big deal since I have my BlackBerry with a Prepaid Plan. I need it to Jailbreak my iPod Touch to a firmware, to install the CD for Blackberry, Blog, Educational Work and etc!

It might probably be God's idea to make me suffer or 'get used to this feeling.' Probably he just wants me to stop getting addicted to the computer and start working on  what I suppose to be working on. But its pretty hard without a computer, First, I have a exercise book that contains a CD, and in that CD it shows step by step in solving the problems, and since I don't have a computer to place the CD in, I DON'T KNOW THE FREAKING ANSWER!!! But hold up, I can't be blaming these things for not studying... Wait, talking about studies. I've been studying lately, but just not really 'focused' in it, I've tried, but its hard. And I'm still trying my best at it. One, I gotta work! Like every freaking day, even including Sunday! Who the hell works on a Sunday? Sunday is a time to relax, God said that! It the Sabbath day, where we should chill, head to the Church for the morning and enjoy our asses off for the rest of the day.. Though still, I can't keep on keeping that in mind, because different people have different lives and the better ones should be blessed and should stop asking for more! From the morning at 7, I wake up to shower, brush my teeth, get dressed, blah blah blah and head out for work. Then from 7 in the morning I work work work work work till 7 at night.. And by the way, I'm self studying, so that means I don't have school, but I need to study myself. So I get home at 7, shower and thats when I have to start studying. But, its been like such a long day of stress, sweat, dumb customers and all the rest that lies between, and when I get home, I WANNA REST! I mean I WANT TO REST, PERIOD! But I can't, I still have to force myself up to study and study. And every time I start studying, all the TV shows comes flashing through my head like CSI is on NTV 7 at 9:30, Drop Dead Diva is on when and just all the shows. Mostly I get jammed up with the shows that I just close my book and drop down on my bed watching the TV till I sleep. Now, I'm just controlling myself to not to, telling myself to study instead of watching TV.

That repeats everyday except Tuesdays, Wednesdays and Sundays. Tuesdays and Wednesdays is when I have tuition, so I take the bus out to the center. Then on Sundays, I work from 9 to 1, then just stay home the rest of the day. I'm telling you, my life is a complete f*ck up.. It was all planned that I'm taking GCE O Levels, so I had tuition for O Levels, and the teacher I had didn't really worked out for me, so I stopped tuition from him and went for another one. And now, I'm having tuition on SPM for O Levels, so I'm actually having tuition for another test, to sit for an exam for another test. And now, I'm taking both of the test. Sucks eh? And its like my parents don't even care about my studies. They don't ask, they don't know, and they don't even TRY to help. Its like I'm doing everything myself and I'm on my own already. This is called, "Proactive." But I'm not, and because of my future, I gotta start being proactive... I'm just so jealous of people who parents help them out in everything, though it might be annoying sometimes. But at least they got someone to watch them over and lift them up when they fall, and cheer them up when their hurt.. In order to take the SPM exam, I gotta find where the SPM building is to apply for it, and my computer has been sent to the HP Towers, and it quoted that it needed RM 1200 to be fixed. Dude.. 1200! Where on Earth do I have that much? My parents won't help me out and not even my brother, now the computer is just there. I hope they don't throw it away or something. (Because for Apple, if you don't pick up the computer in a given time, they either throw it, or repair it and sell it..)

My. Life. Is. Hard....