I don't know..

     So there was this dinner I had attended to tonight. It was great. I showered, got ready and my friend picked me up to her house and waited for her to shower and get ready go that later her mom could send us there. Also, I waited for my girlfriend, which she ended up coming. It was still pretty early, so the three of us chatted and took pictures. I got her a shirt that says, "L" and mine says, "OVE" =], she liked it and I was glad that she did. So then later it was time to go out, but I was still thinking about something. Something that she told me yesterday night. She said that she'll tell me today or tomorrow. And I kept asking her what, but she just wouldn't tell, and later she said she didn't wanted to ruin the dinner tonight, so she didn't wanted to tell. During the dinner, everything was great. EVERYTHING!! Well, mostly, till then it ended and we were on our friend's car heading home. I asked her what it was but she still wouldn't tell me. She said she wasn't ready to tell. These statement that she said made it suspicious. I mean, probably I'm thinking too much or something, but I really think that she wants to break up with me which I hope she wouldn't. But I just had the feeling that was what she was going to tell me later on that night or tomorrow... Then while on the car, I saw her quietly crying, at first, I thought it was some noise from the radio, so I didn't bother and I kept starring at her to see if she really was. She was facing the window on the other side so she couldn't tell when I was looking at her or not. Then later I saw her hand wiping her tears, so I bend over and asked her what happened. She kept saying nothing and nothing, but sure there was something... So then I went back to my side of the car. A moment later I heard some noise again. She was crying again. I knew she was. But she just didn't wanted to admit.. Then my friend's mom who was driving me home had already reached my home, so I had to leave, but before that, I kept looking into her eyes and something was there. I could tell she's trying to hide something from me, but she just don't want to tell me...

Then later when I got home, after a while, then I texted her asking her what happened. For three consecutive messages she said nothing with the three dots.. "..." by then I was almost definite that she was hiding something from me. Then later on she didn't reply my messages. So I called her. I called for about 20+ times constantly till she picked up. She said it was because she put her phone on silent mode, so she didn't noticed that her phone rang. She had to wait for her parents to come pick her up, so she went to the friend's house to wait. Later on when she picked up and told me that he phone was on silent and didn't noticed, I heard my friend calling her a liar, so it must've been that she knew the phone rang, but just didn't wanted to pick it up.
I kept asking her what happened, but she just wouldn't tell me. She then explained that on the car she was crying because she had a stomach ache. I was like nodding but didn't answer much because I didn't know whether to believe it or not..

The main thing is, I have a feeling she just want to tell me something. Something negative, like wanting to break up with me or something. But I didn't tell her that I thought this was going to tell me tonight or tomorrow. I just couldn't. But I'm really hoping that this isn't what she's going to tell me... Just please don't.

My Last Day of School...

     Today was my last day of school. I'm happy and sad at the same time. Happy is because of I finally get to sleep late-er and no need to face the dumb system. And somehow don't need to face the teacher =], Oh yea, and school work, and no need to rush every night sleeping late just to finish the homework so no need to get punished the next day. On the other hand, sad because I won't get to see my girlfriend everyday...=.=", I'll miss her perfume all around the room, I'll miss how she's doing her work and I sneak up from behind to grab her by the neck. =], mainly, just won't be able to see her everyday....And also can't do physical exercise with my brothers.. 

But to think positive, its a new start. Cause' I get to focus for my O level, which I need to get in college, and hopefully my girlfriend and I could continue from there. =]

RELIEF!! =D

     Remember I talked about how my girlfriend wanted to break up with me after I leave the school, because we both need to focus on passing a very important test..? Well, she changed her mind and agreed with my idea. That to continue our relationship till something happens or goes wrong, then we decide what to do. =]. She told me that it was because today, we were in my friend's mother's hair saloon and we were fooling and playing around with each other. And something there changed her mind about breaking up with me when I leave, in this case, in 2 days. But I must had done something, or she felt what I was thinking and she decided to stay with me. =]. I've been thinking about her leaving me after I leave the school for about a few weeks. And this matter has gotten be down... But I didn't show it cause' I didn't wanted her to see my face and didn't wanted to influence her and think that I'm a total jerk. But since now we could last longer or "hopefully" "forever" would be great enough. Truth is, I just can't get her off my mind and my heart beats soo fast every time I think about her...=]

What Happened...?

     I only have 3 more days of school, which is only 3 more days to see her. After these 3 days, we're going to separate or something like that. And it seems like she's happy and joyful about it, and I just don't know why. I'm here feeling sad and stuff, and worrying in the future if we could be back together or not, and she's there all happy and stuff. I don't know, she might be just saying that to make me feel better when she's in the inside sad, but I really don't know. I get it's kind of like twilight, where Edward can read everyone except for Bella. I mean, in a normal way, both of us should feel down and sad, but I just don't get it. HOW can she still be happy? I'm actually tired. But it doesn't matter, because I cherish this relationship and I don't want it to break anyhow. And I hope when we're in college, we can still continue to be together...

Time's Running Out...

     Four more days of school, and I might not see you again. Its like I'm scared and worried, and just have that feeling of missing you when I just think about it. Every time I close my eyes, all I could see is you, you and you. I start to see times we were together. How's we first met, how to did things together, how we just spend time together. And every moment just made me smile. Whether it was a good memory or a bad one. It just drew a smile to my face. And I also remembered how we almost broke up because I didn't cheer you up. I really regret that I did that. Although I had 4 ex's, but honestly and truthfully, you're the one that I didn't regret being with. Though I was your first one and you said I taught you a lot of things, but on the other hand, you taught me a lot too. And you just did things that made me hesitate to think that this was your first relationship, though I know it is. You really taught me a lot. Mostly on how to gain someone's trust. Though there are times when I made you upset or angry. But you still left a little gap for me to squish inside and cheer you up. On the other hand, I never was angry at you. Just that smile you gave me, when I was down, cheer me up. Just that I didn't mentioned it did, but it really did! Now I only have school for 4 more days, and there's a great percentage that I might not see you again. Its like every time I sit in class, I just can't concentrate on my work. I tend to turn around to look at you. And today you were sick. You're were wearing your red checker jacket to keep yourself warm. When I wanted to go to the toilet, I walked past your table and saw you laying down sleeping. That image was really cute. I wish I had a camera to take it down. Your hair was covering part of your eyes, your eyes were close to lightly. And that your cheeks were just there just that the left one was popping up, because it was pressing towards the table. And that you're lips were just closed. As I walked out, I made myself as "unhear-able" as possible because I was scared that I would wake you up. I closed the door as gently as possible, then when I came back, you're face was just there..again! And I was looking at it for a sec, but the teacher called me, so I quickly went so he wouldn't notice that you were sleeping. There were also times when I had nothing to do, and I just sat there, and I was just thinking about you. Every time we did something together, I just thought about it. Right this moment, when I'm writing this, I get this "missing" you feeling. Its like knowing that we will separate and I'm trying my best not to show that I'm weak and worried because I don't want my feelings to influence yours. I really wanna  cry, but its no point. Even if I cried, I can't fix things to how I want it to be. If I could have ONE wish, it would be to be with you...

HOLD BACK!!! =]

     Today, I was at the cinema watching a movie with my brother. It was called, "Life As We Know It." It was a Romance/Comedy. And you know how in these movies they had these kissing parts and romantics parts, the last time I went to watch a movie with my girlfriend, "Eat, Pray, Love." I was hugging her and kissing her during the movie. So this time, when I went with my brother, I had the feeling. But damn!! He's my brother and a FREAKING DUDE!! So I'm like getting away like he got some diseases or something. When I was watching Eat, Pray, Love with my girlfriend, my whole body slanted to her. But this time with my brother, I was sitting in the innest side, so there was a wall next to me, and I literally "stuck" onto it. AhhH! I was thinking all along, if it wasn't my brother and was my girlfriend, it would be sooo goood!! =]

Chatting On The Phone

     Last night or morning, about 1:20, I called my girlfriend, cause' she was ready to talk. When she picked up, she was whispering. It was because she was scared that her parents would overheard her and would confiscate her phone if they did. And she talked in a soft sweet voice. I could hear her. But I acted like I didn't so that she would repeat and repeat and I could listen and smile. =D, We only talked for about 20 minutes due to some reasons. She said that she wanted to sleep and charge her phone, before her parents would "caught" her. So I asked her to hung up and sleep, and thats what we did. In the morning, about 9:00AM, I was working, and I knew that she would be sleeping. Therefore, I didn't text her yet. But till 10-12, I kept on texting her, telling her to wake up. (She's a HEAVY sleeper!!) At about 12-1, she texted me saying that she woke up at 11, and that he phone didn't work. Thats why she replied late. She also told me that yesterday we only talked for a while only  because I had to work. But I think the truth was that "she" was sleepy and wanted to sleep more. (She's really a pig!! =D hehehe.) But it doesn't matter. I still love her. =]

I'm waiting for you..

     I'm sooo sleepy right now. I'm trying to watch a movie to get the sleepiness away. But it's not working. So now I'm here, writing this blog to keep me awake. I waited for my girlfriend a long long time already, due to her class and attending to concert. And now waiting for her parents to sleep, so that I can call her. But I'm soo sleepy... And I'm really sorry if i really fell asleep...

Boring Dinner...

     I just came back from dinner. It was really boring!! We took about 30 minutes to eat. And they chatted for 2 hours!!! My brother talked to my cousin, asking him about college stuff. Then my other cousin was "playing around" with her boyfriend, and the parents had their parents talk. While I was playing with my iPod Touch. Suddenly, it ran out of battery and I was bored to death!! I wanted to text my girlfriend, but she was at a concert, so I didn't because I don't want to disturb her. I sat and sat, till it was finally time to go. So I got on the car, and headed back home. And now I'm here typing this blog and doing some other thing, waiting for the concert to end..

My Busy Girlfriend. =]

     In the morning I texted her, seeing whether she's awake or not. I was up at 7 and texted her at about 8-10. But there was no reply. Because she had something to attend to at 1, she could sleep later than me. Then later she replied me, and I was glad to see her message. We texted for a while then it was already 12 something and she was heading where she needed to go. I knew that she had something going on, and I told me to text me after she's done. (See? I'm sooo understanding. =]) She said she'll text me later when she has the 45 mins break. But I didn't receive a message from her. And her "thing" ends at 4, and now its already 3:30, so I'll wait for a little longer. It's either her phone has problems or that something "special" had happened. She's soo busy! =]. It probably won't end at 4 too, might be a little later. But till up to whatever time she's done, I'll still be waiting for her message. =]

A Crazy Person.

     Just now there was a crazy dude, that walked in my store. He didn't say anything to us. He kept mumbling to himself. All of us was looking at him. But we walked straight in. Then the took out a cigarette and lit it up using the idol's candle fire. Then he walked straight out. We were all ready and expecting him to do something. My parents were around him and my brother and I surrounded the exit. After he lit his cigarette up he went outside and sat on the stairs. He puffed on his cigarette, talked to himself for a while then he went up to a car and knocked on the glass. I bet that dude inside as scared! He then walked and walked, he was walking towards a big drain pipe, so I thought he would jump in and suicide, but luckily he didn't. Then he walked somewhere and we didn't see him anymore. After he lit up the cigarette and went out, my brother said he would go "above" in terms of dying because he lit the cigarette from an idol's candle. But I just kept quiet, cause the idol is fake anyways.

When the crazy guy walked in from the beginning, he was pretty messed up, just walked straight in and mumbled to himself...=.="

Sneaking...

     I was watching a movie, then suddenly my girlfriend texted me saying that she was done with class. I was so happy. I replied her. Then it stopped. There was this thing that her mom kept her phone at night to prevent her from calling people, or answering peoples' call late at night. So then I called her to see if her phone was still on. Amazingly at 12 something, it still was. And I had this internet curfew thingy. When I'm not allowed to use the internet past that time, and the internet modem is at my brother's room. Then, I was thinking about my girlfriend and desperately wanted to chat with her. So I snuck in to my brother's room. His face was facing the modem, and I was really scared. I hesitated for a moment, but a flash went past me. It was an image of my girlfriend. So then I slowly unplugged the modem and took it to my room. I knew that there was this other cable which would gave this modem electricity, so I didn't bother pulling the cable at my brother's room, cause' that might just wake him up. Then I plugged the cable in the modem, but it was a bit loose. But I tried my best and at various locations to search for "line." Finally it worked!! Doubting that my girlfriend would be on, I signed in my MSN. It was laggy for a moment. But then later, out of a sudden, my girlfriend messaged me. I was so glad. And we're still chatting...=]

Terrible Incident..

     As I was reading my girlfriend's blog on getting hit by a basketball and ended up on the tooth, I remember when I was in around 3rd-4th grade. Right after lunch, I went to buy an ice-cream from those vending machines. I was so happy, walking to the playground while unwrapping my ice cream. When I got out and saw the kids playing, I got myself a seat and started to eat my ice cream. Little did I know, the ice cream so sooo hard, then when the first bite that I bit, both of my front tooth came out. And I had to pull it out when I got home...myself. It was something that I will always remember...

Down Down Down...

     My girlfriend came to school today. I knew it before I saw her. Firstly, I saw her dad's car, just leaving as I arrived. On my way up, I could smell her fragrance till inside of the classroom, and she was there, wearing a beautiful black skirt with butterflies on it and a gray shirt! She smiled at me, and I smiled back. =]. As the day went by, she didn't did the things to me like she would other days in class. She didn't came over to my table, she didn't purposely step on my shoe, or any other things that she normally does. So I was feeling a bit down. And somewhat thought that she might be ignoring me for some reasons. But then later, I discovered that she wasn't, it was just that she was doing her things. After class, I could've gone home. Because I wanted to see her for a little longer, I stayed. She had this singing practice. And luckily the other teacher wasn't there, therefore I could enter and see her sing with her band. I was watching her from a distance, and luckily I brought my glasses along. She was standing there with the guitar, playing with the song, with the dress she was wearing. And she was doing all those CROSS-LEGGED! See? My girlfriend is amazing! =D, I do admit I got pretty bored, because there was these sound problems and etc. Though, so, I didn't leave, and I kept watching. When all it was done, she had to leave, and go home. I asked if she wanted me to walk her down, but she said it wasn't necessary. So I just packed my things, and I went home. Later on, I was in my friends car with another friend, heading for the train station, she called me and said I ditched her, in a sweetly bright voice. I was then happy. She kept saying it, and when she stopped, we chatted for a while, and she told me that she was still downstairs alone, waiting for her parents to come pick her up. I was worried. That area wasn't quite safe. But then it was still early, and that it was better than night. Then we hung up and I went on my train and she went home.. =]

Two Lessons Learned...

     Today after school, I took my friends car to the train station. His mom, as usual was so kind hearted to send me back where I wanted to go. But I felt that I was disturbing her although she didn't say so. So I got off at the train station and from Cempaka, I went to Ampang and got off. Then later I went over to the bus station. And this was the first time that I was riding a public bus alone. Therefore, I don't know which goes where, but I have a rough idea of how it works.

So I waited and waited for the Rapid KL's T320, because it goes to KLCC and it went by where I was going to  get off. But I waited for about 10 minutes and it still wasn't here. It was all METRO Bus passing, so I went in one. The bus stopped, but I was still waiting for the T320, but it was no where to be found and the METRO one was moving slowly due to the traffic. I thought and thought, then suddenly I asked the lady if it went to Bukit Indah, which I was getting off. She said no, but it does go to Taman Kosas, which was a little outside of where I was heading. So I got on it and found myself a seat. I, then remembered my brother saying that the T320 bus goes into Bukit Indah, so I thought this METRO one would too, but just not "that" in. Taman Kosas was on the turn to the left, but the bus turned to the right. And when it did that, I was panicking and scared - not knowing where it would take me. So then I just sat there and thought that the bus would go around this area then back to Taman Kosas, but it didn't, it took my farther and farther. Then it came to a stop for about 15 minutes. This is where I called my girlfriend so her voice could calm me down. I called for about 5-6 times, but she didn't pick up. So I forgot about it, calmed myself down and waited. I sat there for about 5 minutes already and the bus haven't move yet. I, then approach to the lady and asked her what happened to Taman Kosas she said the bus would stop? "Oh, you haven't got off?" She replied. Then she told me that I should've gotten of there. So then I sat back down.

Later, the bus turned back. My mom called to see where I was, I told her to pack everything and stuff, and that when I came back, we could leave right away. Because they close the shop at 7, and it was already around 6:30. She asked me where I was, and I said I was "here" and "there" and told her to stop worrying because I roughly know where I am, and that I wouldn't get lost. People in the back were talking loudly in their language that I didn't know of. And it was my first time so I was pretty scared that they would harm me or something. But throughout all, they didn't and they got off where they were heading. Then it went back to Taman Kosas, now I knew, it didn't go "in" Taman Kosas, it just touched the rim, and they said they'll stop at Taman Kosas. I was like.."WHAT!?" But this was how the system was..

When I got off, it was about 6:55, so from where I got off the bus, I ran to my store. I ran and stopped, walked for a while and ran again. With this repeated process, I finally reached my store at 7:05. But the store was already closed and they were gone! I was like "WHAT?!" Then I called my mom and she said they were looking for me. So I told them where I was and they came to me. Then we headed home. They scolded me stuff and stuff, but I proclaimed that I promised my mom that I would reach at about 7, and wouldn't be "too" late. Which I wasn't at all! She said, how come you didn't wait "there" or "there?" and called us to come pick you up here on our way home, since we go by here? I said, no need. I promised you that I would reached at about 7, and I will. Because a promise is a promise. And it had to be fulfilled anyhow! But they said there point and by then I was really, extremely piss, because they went from this topic, to this, then continue on from there.. This is when my girlfriend texted me, saying that she was eating just now, that's why she didn't pick up. And she asked me what happened, but then I was really pissed and I said I'll tell her later, and I didn't took my anger out on her. Then she said, well, okay, I'll tell you when I'm done then, cause' she needs to go somewhere to do something. At the end of that, there were some sweet signs of "love," so it took my anger away like INSTANTLY! But then after a while my parents scolded again and again. Not listening to them, I thought about the happy moments that I had with my girlfriend, and magically I smiled and stuff. Which was pretty great.

From this incident, I've learned two lessons.

One was to know your neighborhood, so you would know when things aren't right and know where you are and whether you're still in that area or not. I knew this, that's why I didn't panic a lot while on the bus, going from there and there to here and here.

Second, was to know the public transport. Sooner or later, you'll going to experience some problems and that you will need the public transport. So learn it before you actually need it, you never know when it'll come in handy.

Though today and this experience here, I was really scared, and I didn't know what to think while I was "lost," I thought positively and thought, why not recognize this place? You're lost anyways, just recognize this place and you will know it. And gain something from this "lost" experience. So then I did, and I pretty much know how this METRO number 79 works. And that I wouldn't make the same mistake again.

But on the other hand, thanks to my girlfriend. hehehe...=]

An Indescribable Day...

     Today was a don't-know-how-to-explain day. It was okay at first, but I was missing my girlfriend. Later when I arrived to school, I saw her outside, then she went in her car. She was wearing a red color shirt, which was the same as mine. Then later, you know how in these school I'm in, we need to shutoff the phone and hand it to the teacher. But this time I didn't. I kept texting her. Next, she arrived to the place where she had to take the pictures. At first I was doing my work, but later I got tired and slept for a while. I kept waiting for her to reply me, but I knew it wouldn't be soon because she was a busy girl with a busy life and a busy day. So I waited and waited. Suddenly, one of my friends said that the other class' teacher was checking to see who didn't hand their phones in. She people in my class who didn't put, quickly rushed and put it in, that time was when the teacher had went to the toilet. So I putted it in the "phone-bin" as well. But then later, I'm like, damn, I need to text her, I'm feeling missing. So then I took my phone back and my friends asked if I was crazy and stuff. But I didn't care. I had "my" way to hide my phone if the teacher had to check me. Finally she was done and she replied me and said that she had a great day and a great experience, hoping that she could do it again. Though I wanted a life like hers, I didn't say much about that. But on the other hand, I felt happy for her! 

After school ended, I called her to see what's up. She picked up and said she was watching movie. I wanted to let her have her time because she don't get these "free" times often. But on the other hand I wanted to talk to her, cause' I didn't see her for a day already. So we chatted for a while.

I was sitting on the side not knowing what to do. I felt really really bored. I could either went home, stayed till 7, or go to the night market with a few friends. Then I hesitated my decision, and finally I decided to call my parents to see if I could go to the night market with a few friends or not. They first said no because no one would be free to send me home. And my dad hung up on my in an angry tone. So then I was suddenly pissed, so I threw my phone and cursed. Which I totally regret doing, but it was just to sudden. Then later on, I asked my friend if she could send me home after we're done. She was so definite about the answer..YES. 

So then I went, and it was about 4-5, when the night market starts at about 7 or so. So my friends and I went to the park and chilled for a while. Then later head back to her house and they showered while I was watching the others playing WII. All along, I was texting her and even called her. But she had other things to do beside the photo shooting she had today. So I didn't wanted to disturb her THAT much. And the whole day, I felt completely empty...

Then later it was about 7 or so, and we headed out for the night market. We ate, drank and laughed. But I still felt down. I texted her to see what she was doing, but she told me to enjoy my day. And I didn't like that cause' I wanted to be with her, but I didn't say anything about that.

When we were done, on the way back, I bought stinky tou-fu back to my friends house and ate at the yard, because they couldn't take the smell. Thanks to my friend Ernest, I pretty much liked it, but best not to eat everyday because the recipe to make it, isn't healthy. 

So then it was about time to leave, and my friend who promised to send me home called her parents or whosoever to fetch us. Out of a sudden she told me that she couldn't send me home. Inside my heart I was like ..WHATTT?!, I kept my thoughts to myself and didn't say it out loud. That's cause' I already feel like I'm giving her too much trouble and I was expecting it in a way. So she kept saying sorry and sorry, but I told her to stop saying it. But she still did because she's that type of people who fulfills promises, but this time it wasn't her fault because she's not the one who's driving. 

So then later after a while, after she left, I called my parents to see who was free to come fetch me back. Then my dad came. I already knew they were pissed already because it was about 10. When he arrived, I apologized and said I wouldn't do it again. But she still had that angry face on him... Later on when I reach home, I got scolded by my mom..again. Saying that this would be the last time and stuff. Now, I was really piss. So luckily my parents did bring home the internet, cause' I said I need it for homework, and thats why I can blog this up now. 

Then I was down, emo and unhappy. I was about to enter shower, but then I remember my jacket, the one with my girlfriends fragrance on it. So I took a sniff, and magically all the sad and unhappy thoughts went away!! I guess I just love her THAT much..! =D

I'm Missing Her..

     Its around 7 A.M. now, and I'm already missing her. She had some photo shooting thing and she's not coming to school. I'm really going to miss her today. Missing her fragrance when she walks past me, missing her bright smile that brightens me up, missing her voice and just missing her presence. I don't think I can focus on my work, but I'll try my best because the last time she was absent, I only finished one subject..

Life Decisions...

     I hate it when I have to make decisions, now I have to make one thats gonna affect my whole future life. First, I thought about being an engineer, and taking things apart and rebuilding them with some special things that I invent or etc. But then later on, I knew this girl, and her thoughts changed mine, and partly due to my own interest, I later thought about going in the performing circle. Where there's singing, dancing, dj-ing, rapping, instrumental-ing, and many many more...which I like. Its actually two things here. Engineering is mainly for making money and stuff. On the other hand, performing arts is about your interest. And if I really had to choose, I would choose the second one, because I would not like or love to do something I don't enjoy doing to make money as my career. So later on as time went past, I debated about these two fields, whether Engineering or Performing Arts. Though soon, later on I thought about Business, how people get rich and famous and top ten richest and etc.

Truth is I really don't know. I'm just scared that I'll make the wrong decision and regretting about it sooner or later. So all I hoping is that I'll know what I wanna be in the future as soon as possible..

Webcaming. =D

     Just now, i webcammed with my girlfriend. I liked it how she smiled and laugh and made those cute faces. Truth is, she didn't make most of them, they came naturally. =], and I hate it how when I was enjoying to the max, then my HP Pavilion dv6000 auto shut downs itself. Which really sucks. =.=", and I thought she would be tired to accept my video call, but she didn't and she let me see her. Even though she was watching movie. And I just love how her face is while she's watching the movie. Its so natural and so ...her. Ugh, now thinking that we will have to separate soon really makes me feel the pain already. And if you're reading this now, let me tell you..I love you. =] (You should be smiling now..hehe. =D)

Short But Worth It

     Today, I ran up over to my girlfriend's house. She's a really busy person. She has this photo shooting thing tomorrow, so she need to get some clothings. She did get some previously, but she didn't like it. So then when I was at her house, later on she had to go and get some new clothings for tomorrow, which was suggested suddenly by her mom. I only stayed there in less then an hour. But to me it was great, though it was short. She kept apologizing saying that she didn't knew she had to go so soon. But to me, though there was just a little feeling of disappointment inside, I didn't say anything about it. (Yup, what a great boyfriend. heheh. =D) Then later on, I left her house and too the train home, which was about 70 cents. I was already sweating from walking all the way and on a hot day. After I reached my station I looked around for the bus, which was a lot cheaper. But then I couldn't find it and it was getting pretty late, so I lined up for a taxi. When I reached my destination, the meter read  6 BUCKS! It was quite expensive, but better than walking, and I won't take the taxi all the time.

Lastly, though I only saw her for around 45 minutes, I was already satisfied, and she kept saying sorry which was needless. =D

Probably She's The One

     So I met this girl at this school, I didn't notice her much at first. But then there was a day that she slapped me for a "fun" reason, that I took it too sudden and got all pissed. She kept apologizing and apologizing, but I ignored her. So then after this was all done, and that I had forgiven her, we had back our own lives. Later on in weeks or months, my friends planned an outing, I attended, and so did she. There was this truck driver that drove really terrible and it almost hit this girl, so I quickly dragged her in, and pulled her aside. Soon, after 5-6 months, when I was about to quit the school, she told me she liked me and she only told me now because I was leaving. But then things went it ways and I didn't had to leave yet. So then she told me that she loved me from when I pulled her in - saving her from the truck. And she kept it all along and told me now. She said it was because many girls was always around me and that I wouldn't take love seriously. Though, later on, we both fell in love. At first she still thought I wouldn't take love seriously and that I was in a playing-type. But I proved everything I had to her and gained her trust. And she loves me so much! =]

Now that we've been together for about 2 and a half month, we still really loved each other. But I'm leaving the school after another week, which is exactly our 3rd month anniversary. And she's leaving the school one month after me. Both of us need to take a test, so we need to free our minds and focus in our studies. During our study time, we won't text or chat with each other pretty much because we don't want each other to fail, or get distracted.

On the negative side, I wish I could just pause the time, be with her and run away with her. But this isn't a fairytale!! And definitely not what you see in the movies...this is reality.....

On the positive side, though we will miss each other and will feel the pain that we will soon get, we still need to study for our future. If she was meant to be, then she will be, and I hoping and praying that she will be the one. I love her a lot, and I'm willing to give up many things for her, thats only if its "give-up-able."

I'm just hoping after our test, and when we get into our college life, we could continue dating again... 

Don't hold on TOO hard....

     Yesterday, I had the friend by the name of Beth. She's been dating a guy for about one month and only found out that he was double dating with another girl who was her friend. She got angry and started not to like the dude anymore. Then the dude said just forget about everything because you still love me and that lets just forget about the past and double date me. Beth didn't know how to answer him and stuff, so she asked for my help. I did help her, but towards the end the dude said that Beth was things in a negative way. Beth got even more angrier so she asked me to curse at him, which I later did. Later on, tomorrow, the dude said he would give up the other girl and only date Beth herself. Again, Beth asked for my help and I helped her to deny him. Then he started asking like a jerk, saying that Beth must be dating other guys thats why she didn't wanted to date with the dude. But Beth wasn't, and its just that that dude can't take rejections, thats why he's acting like a jerk.

What I want to say here is that, people, when they love someone, they love them with all their hearts, and are willing to do anything for them. But when they break up or separate, they curse each other and stuff. Its like, "Come on, be with me." Then if you say no, it''ll be, "You're an *****, go die" (Or something similar).

=> If you love someone and they don't love you...Just set them free, so you'll see them become happy...