SCARY!!

OMG!! Yesterday was really crazy, and it even freaked me out.. It was like this. Remember how I watched 3 movies yesterday? Well, out of the three that I watched, only two was y favorite and it was Inception and Prince of Persia. So I kept thinking about every part and stuff. Then when I finished watching the movies, it was around 5AM or so. So then I went to sleep before my parents caught me. When I finished closing my laptop my mom came in, and I just lied down saying I couldn't sleep. Then she asked if I wanted to go to the market with them, and of course, I said no. Then I just slept. Like blank dead. Cause I was tired.. Then later when they came back and my brother was awake and we were suppose to open the shop, so I needed to wake up, do my things, get dressed and etc. But then I 'think' my body was shaking or something. And my mom passed by my door and saw it. Then my mom repeatedly asked what happened and it got a little louder which my dad and my brother gathered at the door. But I was still shaking, then I could feel my mom rubbing my chest and she kept saying something, I wasn't sure what. I was still unconscious, then my mom suddenly put pressure on my chest and I 'came' back. Alright, let me explain. I think it's that it's kinda like the movie Inception, how they dreamed too deep and need to fall to wake up, but in my case, my mom put pressure on my chest. Then when I 'came' back, it's was like in Prince of Persia, Dastan pressed the button on the hilt, he went out of his body and then back in. It felt like my soul or spirit and my body crashed together. And when I woke up, I 'automatically' sat up with my hand on my chest and with a gasp. And the first two breaths were deep ones. I was really scared. Like, what the **** was that?? And when my parents and brother all asked me what happened I said I don't know how to explain. But when I told my brother, because he watched the movie as well, so he at least partly understands.. And I could sense that he didn't believe me, which I knew he wouldn't, because if someone told me, I wouldn't believed it too. But it happened to me. And I don't know what that was..

Damn, I don't think I'll ever forget that experience. Or probably I'll ask some psychologist or professionals on these things sometime and get a rough idea how this happened.

Also, if you still don't get what happened here, and you know me in real life, remind me about this and if I didn't forget, then I would tell you. [Normally people only remembers 30% of their dreams..]

[December 27th, 2010:: 1:16AM]

A Night Without Sleep

Woah. It's about 5:35 now and I'm still awake.. I watched 3 movies just now. I watched Inception which was so cool. And it's like I can 'try' to control my dreams or something after watching it. It's just moved me somehow. Well, a lot of movies moved me... I then watches Prince of Persia, again it moved me too. Somehow i felt like being the Prince, "Dastan." Not because of the rank, authority or how he had a super not girlfriend. Which was the Princess Tamina or something.. I forgot. But the reason was, because im very adventurous and it's just so cool he goes 'everywhere' and also he knows the shortcuts and 'mouse roads' of his home town. Just. So. Cool!! =] .... Well to me at least... Lastly I watched Sorcerer's Apprentice. Man!! It was awesome! Made me feel like having magic. But movies are movies and realities are realities. And it's not possible. Unless I study physics and build that coil machine that Dave had. Haha.. 

Heh, about 5:45 now and that my parents are gonna go to the market today, which means they're gonna wake up earlier, and I have to fake sleep if not they'll start asking why i didn't sleep and then start lecturing me again... 

Anyways it was nice tho. Watching movie throughout the night. And probably I'll catch the sunset later. =] Man, in Prince of Persia and Sorcerer's Apprentice, it's just so sweet how I see the 'pairs' being together. In Prince of Perisa, the Princess was worried about the Prince. But she didn't wanted to show it but the Prince knew and made her accept the fact. It's just so sweet. =] And in Sorcerer' Apprentice, the guy Dave kept chased back the girl he chased 10 YEARS ago!!! Damn, it's like they're meant to be. Again it was so sweet.. Especially the ending. =]

[December 26th, 2010. 5:53 AM.]

This was how my Christmas Eve went...

Okay, I'm gonna start a new thing here.. for me... Cause I love blogging on my iPod. And that it doesn't always have wifi.. So I'm gonna finish a blog and put a time at the end, which will be when I type it. And when I copy and paste it to blogger.com, it will show another time and that time is when I upload it from there, so if you're reading my blog, don't mess up..

Today, right .., I meant on 24th of December, right after work I thought about swimming and chilling myself since my parents were going out and if I was at home, I would only be using the computer surfing and etc.. And my brother would be doing his things.. So I made an excuse to swim and I bought my things with me:: My iPod, phone, keys, and wallet. So then I was sitting by the pool and wanted to swim, but it was cold and I had thoughts in my mind and it made me want to think more. And if I swimmed, I would forget what I was thinking about. So I didn't swim. I just sat there opening songs with my cellphone and watched the irainian kids hanging out. Thoughts in mind was loneliness. I mean, on Christmas Eve my parents went out and yum cha with my uncle. And left my brother and I home... All my friends had parties and such, I chose not to go because since my parents don't like me going out and if I wanted to, there would be arguments and etc.... So I didn't go and hoping that my parents would take us somewhere. Which they end up going themselves.. And tomorrow would actually be Christmas, today by the way since it's already 2 in the morning. And it wont be any better than yesterday (24th). But I'm gonna hope it'll be wayyy better... 

Anyways I got through Christmas Eve myself by watching Date Night. It was a pretty good movie. And I also watched a little of Mr. Bean Christmas episode, but it was lame. So I flipped to 708, which was showing Teens Choice Awards. And it was awesome. =] Bruno Mars, Travie McCoy, Taylor Swift, Justin Bieber and family guy won. And since the commercial break took too long, I was lazy to wait because it was getting late and I wanted to finish 'Date Night', so I didnt see everyone who won.. 

Anyways, I figured I can't stop hatin life for the things I'm not happy with. Because there are a lot of lives out there that's more worst than mine. So, I gotta appreciate mine...

And when I have a family and kids, I'm gonna be a great Dad, I'll celebrate every major holidays with them. Like getting a Christmas tree on Christmas. (Oh, how I always wanted one. =]) I'm gonna eat turkey with them on thanksgiving. We'll go out wearing green on St. Patties day. And we'll go knocking on people's door asking for candies on Halloween. And many many others. I'm nothing to be like my parents, because how their parents taught them, they're teaching us the same way although its not right. And I find it pretty selfish. Because their parents don't let them go out, and they feel sad about that that time, they don't let me go out.. So it's kind of like, "if I die, I'm dragging you." something like that.. And talking to your kids by authority doesn't work anymore. Because from their time and childhood to todays, it had 360 degrees changed!!! And you gotta understand how your kids are feeling, and not 'assuming' how you 'think' they are or 'should' be feeling. Though we are all humans, but we have DIFFERENT feelings...

And Merry Christmas guys. =\

[This blog post was finished typing at: Friday, 25th of December, 2010 at 2:11 AM]

No topic..

Sitting in the car; walking from places to places, and looking everywhere. I see people walking together side by side by each other. I'm talking about boy-girlfriends now... It's like they're so happy and don't care about anything, and just wanna stay together. Watching them walking and laughing around telling jokes and cuddling together, just draws a smile to my face. Then somehow, the thought of me being single got to my mind. You see, I like seeing people being happy, but when i see myself, I feel pity. Hmmm, that's just life. You dont get all the things that you want. And just watching the things you want around you, makes you have that type of feeling of being envious or in other words, being jealous. I dont know. I just...  Hmm, I dont know how to put it in words. And I trying to blog it out to feel better... And also that day when I went out with my friends, I saw that they all have new phones when I'm still using the same one for about 3 years now. And they still complain about their life.. To me, I just dont think people will be satisfied even if they already get the things that they want. Later on, they'll want more and more things.. Wait, I'm not making sense. Heh, these are just the things running through my head now.. =\

So Many Things Happened These Days.

Errr... I dont know what to blog about. It's been so long since I last blogged.... due to laziness and got bored of doing so.
Hmm, o. I got one. Remember when...? Well that's if you have me on twitter or Facebook. And if you do. Remember when I said that there isn Christmas feelings in Malaysia?? Well I think God had answer me that. He did give me a thing to feel. It was like this:: Last Friday, I went out to try to look for a job. So I took the bus to KLCC, and walked to Pavilion, where I met my friends. They were at Pizza Hut, so I went there and met them. They already had bought my tickets for Tron Legacy 3D. So I watched it with them. When we entered the cinema, it was great. But there were technical issues with the projector. And we waited, but then later that cinema dude said we could get a refund if we wanted to. So my friends and I went out and they bought another ticket for another time for Tron. So then we went in, and this time we watched the whole. After that we went to Times Square to play pool. Man was I pro.. Heheh. Just kidding, but I'm not that bad either.. As I was walking everywhere, I did glance at shops to see if there were empty vacancy space. So it means I did try to look for a job and not only hanged out with friends... After pooling I said I had to go. So I left and headed to Great Eastern Mall. And I had to walk from Times Square to Sungai Wang to Pavilion to KLCC to take the bus. My mom said reach there by 8:30, because that day they were going to GE Mall. So I would meet them there and would go home together with her, my dad and brother. So I started walking. By the time I reached Pavilion, I was partly lost. I walked around and around for about 15 minutes. Then I found my way and RAN to KLCC. It was ... Oh yea, at the main entrance of Pavilion, it was so pretty. They had these machines at the top and made it spit out 'light ice' which made it look like real snow was pouring down from above. Everyone crowded that area to tale pictures, so I had to squeeze through. Okay, back to where I was running.. It was dark out and it was cold. Due to the rain. But I still ran. And also I could only see like 60% because I didn't have my glasses.    Again, I was partly lost and a little scared so I was extra alerted because there were only cars and only very few people on the sidewalk. Then when I was lost, I looked up, because KLCC is tall and it's around Pavilion. I saw it and ran towards it. While I was looking up, the rain wasnt really hard, but it was really soft either. And it looked like it as snowing. And oh yea, my shoe has a little hole in it, so it was raining and I was running. Which made my socks soaked. And that moment when I was looking up, it was like when I was in New York and I was wearing snow boots but my socks was still soaked. So then I knew it was God, giving me that 'feel' of Christmas in Malaysia.. =]. Then I reached KLCC and headed for the bus. The bus seemed to be heading off, but I hoped that it didn't. Then I got on it. It was a different bus. And I wasn't sure where it was going. So I asked the bus driver if it would go by GE Mall or not. He replied it did. So I bought a ticket and took a seat. Just behind him. Cause also I couldn't see. So I asked him to let me off at GE Mall and he was pretty kind. And I was wet everywhere. The lower part of my pants were wet, my shirt was wet, and my hair seemed like I just had a shower but no towel. And i didn't want my parents to see me like this, if they did, they would know I ran a Lon distance and my mom would start worrying and etc. So I tried to dry my hair and shirt. The bus didn't go that fast. He was waiting for more people to get on. And that delayed for about 30 minutes. Which got my hair dry, but my shirt was just slighty different. Then I got off at GE Mall, thanked the bus driver and found my way to my parents. And that's the end.. =]

Well I do have other stories to tell that recently happened. But for now I'll just be finish for now first because I have things to do.. Hehehe. =]

It doesn't matters.

     Alright, I might be a little 'wrong' here, but I still wanna talk about it. I actually just re-watched American Pie, Yes, you might think that I'm a pervert of something here. But before you do, I just wanna say, I didn't watch it because of the rated-r stuff, which include adult material. I watched it, because there were lessons inside.

See, in these types of movies it has perverted characters, and in this case in the movie its, "Stifler," first in the one of "The Wedding" where Jim had to marry Michelle, Stifler ruined everything, but something hit him and he woke up, and he began to change himself and he fixed everything that he had already ruined. Which he surprised his friends because he was known as an asshole, but since he fixed it back, his friends started to look at him in different ways and thought that he cared about his friends and not just doing perverted things like getting girls, dirty talking and basically sex..

Then in another movie called the "Band Camp" was where Stifler did something wrong and he was punished to go to this Band Camp. He suffered at first, his 'cool' friends made fun of him and started spreading that he went to that camp, because he was known as a 'leader' in the 'cool' world, he felt bad. After he went to this camp, he made a video of the people there doing wild things, because Band people are mostly formal and etc, but picture them doing dirty things.. yea, thats what came to Stifler's mind, and he made a video on it, and when his 'cool' friends found out that he went to this camp, Stifler had to prevent them from spreading to the world that he was there, or else his 'cool' reputation would be ruined, and he was forced to show them the video he was working on. And towards the end he deleted the video because he was with friends in the camp and he felt sorry, and feelings of guilt. So he deleted them and changed himself.

Like this song Aeroplane by Tal Bachman.. (It was in the sound track, took me a long time to search for it, I was desperate, so I got it.)

"I was wrong to keep you underneath my finger
I was wrong to try and change you like I did
Oh I was a fool, I was to blame
And I put myself to shame
Now you and your love can show me the way"
*(You gave me your heart and one last chance)*

See? People give you chances, you just have to change. "I was a fool, I was to blame, and I put myself to shame" Then he realized, then "Now you and your love showed me the way." (In the movie, the girl Stifler loved guided him back.) And the "You gave me your heart and one last chance," and Stifler did changed. In the camp it was a competition, he first caused his team to lose 5 points, which was a lot. Then he shaped up, and got back the 5 points, and his friends liked him 'back.'

"Now I, I feel like an aeroplane above the rain

And I, I wont make the same mistakes I used to make."

See? The lyrics all explains, its really a nice song..

Before you listen to it, read the words, one by one and place yourself in a scene..

"I was wrong to keep you underneath my finger
I was wrong to try and change you like I did
Oh I was a fool, I was to blame
And I put myself to shame
Now you and your love can show me the way
*(You gave me your heart and one last chance)

Now I, I feel like an aeroplane above the rain
And I, I wont make the same mistakes I used to make
*It was love and evolution
It was tearing it us apart
I prayed for a solution and I found it in your heart
Now I, I feel like an aeroplane above the rain
I can fly, 

It's true, I loved taking you for granted
I was deaf and numb and blind to who you were
Now I'm gonna show you and you're gonna see
Everything you mean to me
I am going to be there whenever you need
(I'll protect you, I'll respect you)

Now I, I feel like an aeroplane above the rain
And I, I won't make the same mistakes I used to make
*It was just another emotion 
It was running through my veins
But you gave me your devotion and something in me changed
Now I, I feel like an aeroplane above the rain
I can fly

(I'll protect you, I'll respect you)
Now I, I feel like an aeroplane above the rain
Yes and I, I wont' make the same mistakes I used to make
Oh I feel like aeroplane above the rain
Yes and I, I won't make the same mistakes I used to make

Some questions have no answers
Some answers have no truth
The Truth is my religion
And I seen the truth in you
And I, I feel like an aeroplane above the rain
I can fly "

And another song called Laid, by James. Again, read through the lyrics..

"This bed is on fire

With passionate love
The neighbors complain about the noises above
But she only comes when she's on top

My therapist said not to see you no more
She said you're like a disease without any cure
She said I'm so obsessed that I'm becoming a bore, oh no
Ah, you think you're so pretty

Caught your hand inside a till
Slammed your fingers in the door
Fought with kitchen knives and skewers
Dressed me up in women's clothes
Messed around with gender roles
Dye my eyes and call me pretty

Moved out of the house, so you moved next door
I locked you out, you cut a hole in the wall
I found you sleeping next to me, I thought I was alone
You're driving me crazy, when are you coming home
Pretty
Pretty"

See, at first I didn't wanted to blog this up, because I've been trying to set a reputation, a better one for myself, but I just want people to get me the way I am, and this is me. I watch things regardless of what material to learn life lessons. And there I blogged it up.

There are also other meaningful songs, but I haven't found them yet..>.<

And yes, its 2:15 already, I was planning to sleep but then last time when I had a topic in my head, I didn't write it down and went to sleep, then the next morning I forgot and lost it. So this time I kept it down.

Kay, nites now. =]